Hmmm, well folks I may have to call this quits for a while. Really all it does anymore is depress me, it represents that faint, clinging hope that I can possess a constant understanding of what's happening in the world, which is the way wrong way to handle it. Listen, I'm lonely, depressed, scared as hell, stressed out, and irritated. In short, this isn't helping the way it was supposed to, and when a tool doesn't work, stop using it. You all know how to get in touch with me if you need to, and that's recently been the only time I've come into contact with anyone. I could quite easily kid myself and say I'm going to go out and meet some people, have a good time, and all will be well, but we all know how much crap that is since I seem to lack the cojones to actually follow through with it. Right now only two people talk to me on a semi-regular basis, and I don't like that. I understand that everything is within my power to fix and take control. So, here's what I'm going to do. I'm going to make this my final post, I'm going to take a deep breath, and I'm going to either put my fist through the wall in frustration or relax and try harder.

Arrivaderci